I have to take this moment and apologise for my leave of absence for the last few month. I haven’t taken this blog very seriously despite having huge ambitions to be a writer. I’ve taken a step back, evaluated the blog and (also my life but I will explain that soon) come back to you all with a new blog name. Welcome to ‘Being Twenty something’- same randomness, same blogger, different style different attitude, and no that doesn’t mean in your face, bite me attitude, I mean my attitude to writing and the way I see and express things, in other words, blunt honest and no holding back.
I WILL NOW APOLOGISE IN ADVANCE FOR ANY LANGUAGE SOME MIGHT FIND OFFENSIVE. I try not to swear but sometimes some words cant get across a feeling as well as a swear word, so apologies.
I am taking leave now of my long habit of hand written journal writing and embracing technology and keeping and online, live, say it how it happens blog. I’ve not enjoyed keeping a hand written journal for a long time now but find it easy and more interesting to write online. I will be as always keeping a kind of scrap book of memories at home, which I guess will also end up on this blog. Expect more nitty gritty ramblings. I am a passionate person, I read and see things daily that move me, either to piss me off, feel happy or upset. I’ve never actually been good at expressing myself, its only a new recent thing and sometimes even then I say too much…but what does it matter, at the end of the day it’s my opinion and I’m entitled to it.
Its like not so long ago, all over the news has been a story of the boy who lost his hand petting a tiger. I don’t feel any sympathy at all for the kid but everything for the tiger. Firstly, why would your parents put you in that danger? The railings are there for a reason. Every child is brought up knowing Lions, and tigers and bears (oh my) are WILD ANIMALS! Even if this wild animal is caged and on exhibit, it doesn’t make it any less wild, so if you walk willingly up to a tiger and stoke it knowing all this, you’re either A) Naive B) suicidal c)Really stupid. Everyone my think I’m being harsh? Maybe I am, as at the end of the day it was a child that has suffered the injury. Ok fair point, but this child was STILL old enough to know better. And why do I feel for the tiger? Well he was just acting on his natural instincts, being in a zoo, and looking at the video and images that have gone viral, This tiger wasn’t in the best of habits, so maybe, bored, fed up maybe hungry, followed everything he knows, and to bring down attackers or prey. So a tiger was being a tiger, and may lose its life for acting the way it should. The human race do sometimes sicken me.
You get the general idea. So what have I been up to since my last blog post? In all honesty not much. A lot of reflecting and planning and being shot down as quickly as I stood up. Things seem to be calmer now and a plan is in place, ( I again will explain this in a moment) and its all looking good.
Okay so, when I last wrote I was planning a gap year. my heart got ahead of my head as it tends to do, and realistically this was never going to happen over night. I have moved my plans of travelling to around 4 or 5 years time. This gives me a chance to sort out everything before I up and leave the country, and obviously save up and hopefully win the lottery. (HA!) Being unemployed for this length of time I have found really stressful and trying. I have worked since I started college and having this long leave of time I am drifting into a rut. To keep my head above water I have been trying to keep myself busy but its also hard in this day and age as everything has a price. Also I have my own house, yes I have benefits and am not complaining of the help I am receiving but I don’t feel its enough. I have always paid my taxes, my largest tax reduction I ever received was 140 something. I now live off around 45 per week, and I’m supposed to magically pay the long list of bills I have on this money, including adding towards rent and council tax. Its NOT happening. I am getting into debt and there is nothing really that can be done, and you know was maddening? Turning on the TV and seeing advert after advert appealing to donate to starving people over the world. How about helping the starving in this country? I’m sure there is some? I mean I’m lucky I have support from friends and family so I do get meals, but what if people out there are like me struggling to find work, keep up regular payments on your home and feed themselves? Again, which are you most likely to sacrifice? I have at my lowest point in my unemployment starved so I can pay bills just to keep them off my back. Its not easy at all. I feel for those that are genuinely struggling and feel a burn if hatred to those who cheat the system. Deliberately having children to keep the regular flow of money into their greedy accounts. I’m not complaining its unfair, I am grateful for what help I do receive and know without it I wouldn’t have my house or what not.
Taking all this into consideration I am still managing to save at least £4 per month to go into the gap year fund. Its not much but considering I am on such a tight budget I am surviving. With so much free time on my hands and it being August, there is a lot of stuff happening about Education, with students receiving A Level and GCSE results. I do feel in these months thoroughly depressed. I feel I have done nothing with my life in my twenty something years and went in long search of a career plan. Well, the job centre had already armed me with this tool and I wasn’t even aware. I was given a slip of paper with a website on and out of pure boredom had a look. Everything given to me is obviously to aid me in seeking work but I wasn’t expecting this….
The National Careers Service, is a government run organization to help young people whom seek advice with every aspect of careers. Not only can you speak to advisor over the phone, have regular Email conversations with your advisor, but the website is full of information and tools to help you. You have an option to make you own account to keep track of your progress. They also have skills tests which help you decided which is the best career track to take. I completes all these and was really surprised by my results. My first Option was Medical Technology, working in medicine, with people and animals, my second maintenance, service and repair, something that had never crossed my mind, like engineering. (to be honest I was annoyed at this suggestion! No idea why but it did!) then followed Arts, Crafts, and Design and publishing and Journalism. I king of expected these options to be higher on the scale but at least they turned up. Next back on the website I looked up the job profiles listed under each category, ignoring Maintenance entirely. (yes I’m stubborn) and actually developed a surprising list of possible careers, mostly taken from the Medical and Publishing and Journalism lists. I always thought writing is my goal but was hugely swayed by the Veterinary options. In utter confusion I reported back to my career plan written by my Advisor Jeff and short-listed and researched in depth the possibilities to had to two. I decided that I’m going to pursue both. One as my main career, the other a back up.
So now as I write this awaiting my confirmation email, I am a student of Veterinary Physiotherapy. YAY GO ME! And on the side still learning to be a creative writer, which could lead to a manner of all jobs. I am excited, I do admit. I have also collared a work placement with flexible hours and can now confidently look for a job doing what ever as I continue my studies (and begin).
Also while I am close to coming to a close on this blog post I would like to take the opportunity to introduce the newest member of the fluffy household. ( I know I am so going to contradict what I said earlier about finances but this was my decision and it hasn’t made my situation any more unbearable, maybe a lot more bearable. ) I would like to introduce Lottie, my new baby kitten. She is now twelve weeks old, I’ve had her for two. She is tiny and currently asleep curled into my thigh. She is an evil little madam, with tenancy to bite, claw and attack when you least expect it. Before staring this blog I was in fact online looking at kitten toys when she sat innocently beside me, like butter wouldn’t melt, watching then dives forward securing her tiny needle point teeth into my elbow and wraps her legs digging her claws into my fore arm. Not only did I jump 10ft in the arm, I nearly dropped my already cat abused laptop and nearly cry at the sudden pain engulfing my arm. None of my cats have been so brutal in play as she is, if she can make the big cats cry, she’s not one to be messed with! ( as I write this, Bandit is perched on the very edge of the bed, little lady sprawled directly down the middle and Poor Elmo curled up behind the bedroom door).
So once again I apologise for my leave, I will attempt to write as much as I can for now on, with Vet school and the rest of it. Hope you enjoy the new improved blog and get an idea of what its like (in my view) being twenty something!
PS. that website is https://nationalcareersservice.direct.gov.uk
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Love MJ xx