Sorry I’ve not posted for a little while. I am sorry to say Tess went to sleep on November 6th. As much time has passed since then, the wounds are still raw and the tears still fall every day. I read online a way to feel a bit better is to write a letter to them…so instead of my normal post, this is for Tess, The world’s greatest dog, my best friend and saviour. I don’t know what I am going to be without you…
You have been my best friend for over 13 years now and I am heartbroken you are no longer here with me. I miss you so so much the pain feel is so intense I don’t know what to do. You were my comfort when I felt bad or sad. You were the one to come running, lick away the tears and wag your tail and all of a sudden all the bad feelings were gone. Who’s going to do that now? I feel bad a and sad now and have nothing but your sweet face in memory for comfort now.
We had many adventures in our time together and I wish I could remember every single one. I remember our long walks and swimming in the river. I remember playing in the parks and taking you to a shopping centre and telling the guard you was my guide dog. We were both a lot younger then. I remember taking you on holidays because the thought of leaving you behind was agony. Once we left you at a kennels for a night for my uncles wedding. I cried that night because I missed you. I skipped school the next day to come and get you back.
You came into my life when I was turning 13, just before. I came home from my first ever camping trip and I felt so lonely. It was the time I realised I didn’t have any real friends and the times when school was around it was long and painful broken up with library trips and books, to you came along. I remember the first time I saw you, and you came home. I remember taking you in my arms so small and sweet and you licking my face. I remember giving you your first meal with us and playing with you in the garden. I remember introducing you to Spooky and how scared you were of the spitting fluff ball. The first night now so long ago still is so fresh in my mind. You woke me up, crying; I scooped you up in my arms and took you to bed with me. You slept by my heart all night and we got in trouble with mum the next day, but that was your spot every night after.
I remember your love for hair bands and you stealing them out my hair when you could, and that you loved books as much as me (eating them) I remember all the times we were foodies together and shared so much bad stuff together. We grew together and learnt together. you were a really clever dog. You were loyal and trusting and looked out for me. You used to meet me from school and we’d walk home together, to we moved and then you waited patiently by the window for the school bus, I can still see your wagging tail and excitable yaps.
You saw me through school, college into my working life. Even when I had a bad day I was always happy to come home to be greeted by you and the million kisses you gave to everyone because you were kind and gentle like that. You watched us as a family grown and witnessed various cousin grow up, and eventually witnessed when my niece came into the world and then my nephew. They loved you too even though by this time you began feeling old and tired and children became too much, but you always had kisses for them. You were my gentle caring friend when I lost my own daughter. You sat with me for hours and let me cry into your fur into sleep came, and when I woke you were still there, Your big eyes and loyal heart was always selfless. You loved us so very much.
Tess I want you to know, we love you. We love you so so much and we miss you more and more every day. You were my first ever dog and I am so lucky to have met you. You showed me so much about myself and I am grateful to you for all the love you shared, the joy and comfort you brought so effortlessly. I Love you,, you will forever be my best friend, my comfort and my guide in life. You will forever be in my heart, You weren’t just a good dog, You were the best and I could never imagine my life without you and at the moment everything is a struggle, I keep calling you and looking for you. I know if you could come you would. I know now you’re watching over me and waiting. One day we’ll meet again and that time we will never have to say goodbye,
Good dog Tess, always and forever Good dog. xxxxx