Good morning fusionists,
Well hasn’t it been hot recently, could it be, Possibly, maybe be SUMMERTIME???? we should be so lucky! by the title I guess your feeling a bit amused by the said title? I wouldn’t get too excited, there isn’t very much to share in all honesty. maybe the Dun Dun DUNNN can be I’m actually writing a blog post! oh yaaaay.
Its the first of July *turns over Channing Tatum calendar and strokes the picture smiling like a goon* and I have a few small things to plan for the next few weeks. Firstly lest update you with what I have been doing. Not much. I have though joint the gym. Yes you are allowed to think oh dear lord…because that’s what I think everyday when I get there, step onto the treadmill ands begin moving at such a pace it shouldn’t be allowed. Its working though. I have lost a stone in my three week stint.That and turning in to a human rabbit but living off of lettuce and carrots. That’s an exaggeration, I’m actually on the Slimming world diet and I cannot fib and say its awful, I cannot bear to look at another tomato, it allows me to ration and eat all the bad stuff that put me in the position to need dieting in the first place. (I tell you now saving 5 syns of your daily allowance for a Freddo is totally worth it and you will savour that tiny bar for hours, nibbling millimetres off the edges not wanting it to end!) I guess I should blog more about my dieting and gym experiences. It tends to make my friends laugh.
Dieting and gym, what else have I been up to? well I have counselling with my previous counsellor, which do not feel like a ‘therapy session’ it feels like a moaning session, and since this week she’s on TRAINING not only am I missing our session to moan but I feel abandoned. How dare she go on a fire safety course?! I have to wait now to NEXT TUESDAY to see her and rant away but my problem is, all the things bugging me today or in the last two weeks I will forget then yet again sit in almost silence wondering what to tell her, but as soon as I get out the door….AHHHHHHHHHH the hulk stirs. I do have the random comment asking what is my problem? I don’t know. If I know I would be happy and announce it to the universe. I will be a proud lunatic. I just don’t know. The only way I can describe myself is by comparing my self to ‘Mad Fat Diary’ character Rae Earl. Not 100%. I have a relationship with food I either love or hate it, I cannot deal well with issues and have panic attacks and self harm (not for a while now but the thoughts occur now and again) but that’s life. I’m on a long road to getting better I just need to endure the bumps and breakdowns along the way and try and fix them to get moving again.
One good thing that has occurred since my last post is…..I got another fuzz baby. NOT a replacement for Lottie in the slightest but a distraction and a new member of the family. This little ball of fluffy anger is like me, a laid back lunatic. His name is ironically Blue. No he his neither coloured, or acts blue. he is a lively, evil genius in cats pyjamas. His is irritating, cuddly, spiteful and dopey all rolled into something so small. I love him to bits. Blue has made his self truly known in the household. He had terrorised Bandit to the point he is scared of this tiny ninja, become the bestest friends ever with my Nephew and decided mums feet are in fact the greatest toys to ever cross his path. he has learnt ‘Nanny’ is the one that will tell him off and that clawing her will not put him in anyone’s good books and also mum shouldn’t paint her nails because he will chew off all the pain staking hard work. Bottom line is a rebel without cause and a ‘purrfect’ member to the family.
so that kind of wraps up this post. I honestly have a mind block on what else I wanted to write about, no venting on here this week. I will be writing more as a ‘homework assignment’ from my counsellor. If anyone would like to leave any comments on anything really please feel free to. I appreciate the feed back! I will write again in a couple of days. right now I need to get up and get ready because its DATE DAY! woodside Falconry park YEAAAHHHHH have a great day everyone!
Love MJ xxxxxxxx
P.s I met a minion and we fell in Love, its a shame we had to break up after so short a relationship. GOODBYE SWEET MIKE