Good morning dear fusionists!
Last night as you can guess from the title (after I watched the rugby) I had a spontaneous back garden bonfire, and said goodbye to all the rubbish that has built up and stopped me living in the NOW. It was a great feeling. Goodbye all the users, the mood hoovers, the negativity, the doubt, the people who drag me down, the ex’s and those people that aren’t worth my time and inner celebrated the ones I’ve loved and lost. My granddad, my daughter Olivia and my little Lottie and Spookie (who visited me in dream last night). It took hours but I did it. I got rid of all those reminders, packed away and going to seal the box with all my previous journals in a dn going to now live my life how I want. I’m going to do the things I want and save for the adventures and objects I wish to possess. I cannot wait to begin!
My excitement at the moment is building mainly for Halloween. I have always loved Halloween. I have no idea who, it think it’s because I can celebrate being different without for once being judged and I do love this time of year. Last night was the perfect night to have a bonfire, a chill in the air, a light mist settling in, oh my it was amazing. Ideal time to say good-bye demons and welcome the new me into the now. The me that is going to fight for what I want, to do what I want and the me that has finally be able to accept myself for who I am and realise you don’t need other people to make your dreams a reality. All you need it the willpower to fight on. I do.
I feel like I’m in a good place at the moment. I feel positive. I have a job I love, im studying something I’m interrstied in. I got a car last night (well its shared) but it’s still a new adventure. I’ve got London to Brighton coming up, I’ve got a university open day next week. I am buzzing with all these positive vibes. And it’s a new month next week. need to pick something to do different through out again lol. Next year is going to be my biggest adventure yet for what I am currently thinking about but this is something I do not wish to discuss on my blog just yet. Soon though.
What have you done to symbolize a new chapter in your lives? How did it make you feel? Right now I need a shower as all I can smell is ash in my hair and to finish packing up the past and continuing into my future. Oh the feels!!!
Thank you so much for sharing this life journey with me! I love my dear little blog, I never knew after almost two years of writing it I would still go back to it. I’ve tried blogging in the past but all failed.
I cannot wait to share many more adventures with you guys! Take care all
Love MJ xxx
‘Life isn’t about finding yourself, Life is about creating yourself’